Settled some stuffs today here in KB. Lepas appoinment tadi aku terima SMS dari Maxis. 'You have reached 80% of your credit limit. Please arrange for payment... bla, bla, bla....' Damn! Takleh le tengok orang senang sikit. Ada aje yg mintak duit. When will this rat race is ever gonna end? I wish I was in Thariq shoes right now! The way I see it now, he's the audience in the grand stand, looking at people racing their rat races since he's way out of it! I'm so happy for him. Congrats man!

Malam tadi aku temankan Pie jaga Tok Ayah kat hospital. Pie told me to bring my sweater since the chill would get really, really cold tengah2 malam kat wad tuh. He asked me if he can bring my laptop to the hospital to get rid of the time emptiness while we were there. Malam tu Tok Ayah demam jadi kitorang gilir2 demah dahi Tok Ayah. Kalau korang nak tahu, Tok Ayah dah takleh makan thru mulut dia because of the cancer he was suffering on his tongue. So, the doctor had to feed him with milk thru a tube going thru his nose. Air untuk drip pon dok slalu silih berganti. So, malam tu lepas kitorg salin lampin dia and bagi ubat thru the tube, terus dia tidur. Berdengkur lak tuh! Boleh la kitorg lepak2 jap.

I took a glance at the clock on the wall. It was 3 in the morning. Nampaknya semua patient kat situ dah tidur. Tinggal aku dengan Pie je yg still awake. I took a look around. It aint too good when you are too long in the hospital with the fact that you are in the pink of health. Not being the one hospitalized, you tend to see each and what every patient is suffering. Being me, it can make you feel worse. That's because I'm the type of guy who try to feel what's it like to be in people's shoes. With an attitude like mine, you can either be a good doctor or suck big time at it! Looking at my career now, I guess the second consequences is more like it! I dunno. Can't help being sorry for them but really, being there too long can make you sick. But since I'm doing this in courtesy of my granpa, this is no big deal. It's the least I can do as a grandson. Pie's past 2 weeks life was like 24/7 feeling like what I'm feeling now so, what i'm going thru now wasn't too bad compared to his last 2 weeks. While he was playing DrugLord on the notebook, I was into real deep thinking on what will I name my baby (Seems like a never ending process aite?!). So, I brought out a few scraps and a pen in my hand, jotting down names whenever they seem to appear in my mind. Ada gak sesekali tu tetido tapi bila ada ilham nama baby tu mai, aku tekejut dari tido sambil tulis nama tu atas kertas. Sesekali tu teringat Honey kat umah. Hope she's doing fine down there. Some nurses just passed and smiled looking at me. Mungkin diorang ingat aku tengah mencari ilham untuk tulis lirik lagu cintan kot. Gilo! Yeah, I bet it would be really nice carik ilham kat hospital!...

Alhamdulillah, Tok Ayah tidur nyenyak malam tu. Maybe bacause of the drowsiness as result of the effect from the medication he took or perhaps, he was too tired. Aku lak kul 4 pagi baru dapat tidur. Tu pon banyak kali terkejut biler tetiba tengah2 malam tu bunyik semburan air perfume automatik kat dinding hospital tu menyembur!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 11:21 PM