Called my mum this morning while I was in the traffic on my way to work. She said that my Granpa is still in the hospital. And he's gonna undergo a laser operation next week. SuTee took the last flight to KB last night to see how bad he was doing. Hopefully, everything will turn out fine for him. Had a weird dream last night. I was in this place I'm not sure of. Everything felt so stiff and lifeless. It looked like an old, classic hospital with no one around. And it was like deja vu when I woke up for my Subuh prayer. Dunno why. Told Honey about it and she said that is must have been the new curtain in our room that she hang up yesterday evening. Sigh.

Lately I get lots of weird, unexplainable dreams. The night before I had a dream that our baby was a boy. In the dream, we were like cramming our heads thinking of a name for the baby and finally, BINGO!... a name came up. I remembered that both of us was very happy and satisfied with the name that I almost certainly ran to JPN to register our baby's name - by bare feet! The walk was like forever and I was so exhausted and thirsty that I woke up from my sleep, jumping out from bed and headed to the fridge for water. It was 5 o'clock in the morning back then. The thing is till now, I couldn't even remember what the name in the dream was. Damn.

This morning, my wife asked me if my dad is gonna come home when we got our first baby; his first grandchild. I was speechless. The fact is, I'm really not sure. As harsh as it may seem but only the family knows what make him fly and work in UK for the last 5 years and never came back. My mum went to visit him there during her umrah last year. For me, It's better of for him that way than having him in front of us seeing him suffer and endure all the pain he had to go through because of us. At 15, I learnt the mean, nasty and cruel side of human being. And my dad was the prey of those f**king bastards. A consequence of working with people full of malice and hatred in their heart - the sad thing about Malay attitudes in bussiness. Shit, I'm outta here!

p/s : Love you dad!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 2:03 PM