(for the note, I'm skipping my lunch while typing this!)

Danish is changing so much so fast, I feel if I don't write everyday then I'm already falling behind. Once a week or so has passed, the idea of writing everything that has happened just becomes overwhelming. If this blog of journal is going to stand as a legacy to my son so he can know my thoughts and feeling during his infancy, then I'm letting him down too. I need to write just a little bit every day, just a few sentences letting everyone know what's happening. At least I can try.

The worst thing about being a dad is having to leave for work and be away from him for close to 11 hours a day. I really need to either win the lottery or something ( or perhaps, Explorace for that matter! ). I honestly don't know how other dads can stand to be away from their kids for so long. Could I be the exception to the rule? This Friday I'll be in Melaka for the MIHF Exhibition. Luckily, our manager told me to just make a one day trip there, considering my new born baby; compared to other colleagues who will be there till Saturday. Damn, I should start thinking to use Danish as my reason to get out of shit sometimes! Haha... My mom will also be coming to KL this Friday, all the way from KB. Looks like our new granma here is not satisfied with her last quality time with Danish Haiqal; being her first grandson. Mak aku dah jadi nenek dah? Isk, susah nak percaya...

Last weekend,... Zaki, Ayu & their mom came to visit little Danish. Zaki even brought Danish some shirts from Los Angeles since the fella was 3 weeks there during his outstation. 1-week old, and Danish already have some overseas shirt?! Lawan tauke nih! Erly also showed up with his fiance, Fidah which happens to be Hani's junior at UIA. My cousin Anuar and wife, Izan together with their 3 month's Wan Haziq Hilmi also took their morning weekend off to be at my in-law's. They were both kinda stunned when I told them our baby's name. Soon I realized that they were actually booking the name 'Haiqal' for their next baby! Haha, sape cepat dia dapat! Atok, Salman & Su juga turut berkenan mencemar duli yg sedia tercemar ke umah mertua aku ... And last but not least, not to forget Ayzan and Amie for their gift. Terima kasih banyak2!

Darick called me up yesterday asking me to email him some photos of Danish with some info during his birth. He'll be needing them for the September issue of Cybron's Bulletin. Haha, looks like my baby's face will be on the bulletin soon! But not the cover page la. Ceh, macam model plak. I guess what's next? Colgate? Haha, take care people!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 1:05 PM

I've decided that the best thing about being a dad is that I'm allowed to kiss my son whenever I darn well feel like it! Sometimes during office lunch time, I would take a quick 20 minutes, drive like hell, push the paddles of my 1.5 and be by my baby's side although it would only be for a couple of minutes. AND I didn't even care about having my lunch!!! Crazy huh? Man, I don't have an explanation to that do I?...

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 2:30 PM

We've entered a whole new realm of babyhood. Along with new solid food comes the dreaded solid, stinky poops!

I remembered the first 3 days Danish was born where I was afraid of changing his diapers. It has nothing to do with the sometimes gooey substances I find inside the diaper, it has more to do with the one wrapped inside the diaper itself - my son. Somehow back then, he was so small and fragile. Today, with Baby Danish being 6 days old, changing his diapers would be one of my most awaited event at home. Sounds some what stupid? Well, wait till you get a baby on your own and it will just happen without you realizing it. Funny huh?

Being in the hospital for three days with the air-cond and all, Danish's sleep routine got kinda jumbled up as we brought him home for the first time. Every night he has awakened in the middle of the night around 2:00 or 2:30, often more than once. That was when me and Hani exchanged shift, taking turns to calm him and get him back to sleep. I guess he was confused with the whole environmental changes here and there and the small guy decided to sleep during the day and 'operate' during night time!

Thank god that lately, Danish has been better about sleeping through the night. The last two or three nights he's slept almost eight hours. Looks like he's adapting perfectly well to his surroundings and new environment at home.

Thank you son!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 2:41 PM

Wow. You don't write for a few days and suddenly it's a big chore to get caught up. Let's see... where to begin... ahhhh, the beginning!

Friday, Sept. 17 was a holiday for me. My plan was to spend most of the day being with Hani at home, waiting for the signs and contractions to occur since Hani was 6 days overdue that day. And IT DID! 9.30 AM after breakfast, Hani was in such pain that me and my father-in-law took her and rushed to Hospital Selayang and were there by 10 AM. I couldn't remember how many red lights I ran into, how many 'damn-you-horns' I got, how many middle fingers were raised up. All I knew was that I wanted to be there on time.

Upon arriving at the Dewan Bersalin, the doctors straight away brought her to the ward and 2 hours later she was admitted to the labor room. The nurse at the counter called my name and I was told to fill in a form, pay for admission and preppare stuffs like my wife's shirt, kain batik, towel for the baby, baby's shirt and a diaper. Having done that, I found myself sitting in the parents waiting room together with other half dozens of nervous fathers sweating their palms out, keeping their fingers crossed.

As minutes passed by feeling cold, I went down to the cafe at ground level of the hospital to have some lunch being it past lunch time and I seriously needed to calm down. Well, I bought a cheeseburger and milk(brief description of my lunch) and I was going to put some mustard on my burger. At the same time I was thinking of the birth that was coming. It was then that I realized that I had poured my milk on my cheeseburger! Boy was I emb@rrassed. I looked around to see if anybody was watching and thankfully nobody had seen me.

By around noon, Hani was feeling light contractions. By 3 PM she was having fairly strong contractions and was dilated to 4cm. Around 5 PM she was in heavy labor, using Lamaze breathing to get through the pain. They warned us and Hani had read that Pitocin causes contractions to be more painful. Hani was in quite a lot of pain and it was a sad thing to see her in such state. Though, I stood there by her side, comforting her in every way that I can, sweating. It was during the 8cm where the pain seemed so unbearable.

The doctor came in and told her if she felt the need to push with the next contraction, she could. I was in a dream state, the baby was coming! Was I ready to be a dad? I was so damn nervous that I didn't think I was! There was nothing for it, he was coming whether I was ready or not.

... A L H A M D U L I L L A H ...

My son; Wan Danish Haiqal was born at 6:50 PM on Sept 17th, 2004. Weighing 3.12kg, he's just about the greatest thing that's ever happened to me.

To Hani my dear wife,
You're the best and I love you so much. Being with you in the labor room and going through what we both went through make me love you even much more. I want you to know how much our baby means to me. Together we'll watch him grow and together we'll grow old. May god bless you always, my dear... always.

I hope to use this blog to chronicle my adventures in parenting. The ups, the downs; the victories, the defeats; things I learn, things I teach; funny situations, scary situations. All of it. I hope you get something out of it, even if it's just a laugh or two. Some pals say, biler smua dah selamat, it's all over but for me, a new era of my life is just about to begin! Enjoy!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 9:49 AM

Salam ppl, I'm back online. Nope, the baby hasn't came out yet. That's the most frequent sms text msg that I've to reply to my friends and relatives in the past 2, 3 days. And it keeps on coming! Thanx for each and everyone of your concern. May your prayers be with me. Gosh, I'm touched. Sob,...sob... Some of them convinced me to call them 24/7 if there's any sign of the baby coming out and will come straight to the hospital despite of what time it is. And some precious friends, even felt guilty for having their engagement ceremony on my baby's due date, afraid of missing the precious moment of the yet, unborn child! Heh, congrats Yanz and Mod. Gua dah start dapat hidu dah ni nasi minyak kat Kota Singa! Don't worry, you guys haven't missed anything yet.

I must say that these past 2,3 days (that includes the weekend as well!) was the most anticipated yet anxious feeling I've ever had in my life. Last year's most anxious moment was during my akad nikah which thank god went well and now,... this one. I just can't help myself but to spend every minute being by my beloved wife, waiting in anticipation, prepparing for that dreaded moment. It felt like every seconds count. Whatever happens, I'm not gonna miss this precious moment of fatherhood. I'm not just gonna let it slip away. No way. I wanna be there for her through all the progress from A to Z especially in this last stage of pregnancy, comforting her in every way that I can coz I know, this is the time where she's gonna need me most. Insya Allah, may god be with me.

For those who didn't noticed, I was on EL on Friday. Thursday night and Honey was starting to feel painful & throbbing in her tummy with active movement of the baby and all when all of of a sudden after I massaged her stomach, the movement just stopped. We waited for a while, hoping to feel some movement or a kick but there was still no sign of it. Thinking that it was normal, we both went to sleep. The next morning after our subuh prayer, Honey panicked claiming that there's still no motion of the baby inside her even though normally in the mornings, the baby would usually be the one to 'wake up' first before her. Nervous, we went to the hospital to check if everything is allright. The wait for the results was damn breathtaking. We couldn't help but fearing the worst although I had Honey's palm in mine helplessly trying to assure her that everything's gonna be okay. Thank god, after a quick scan the doctor assured us that the baby is okay. The reason for the not so active movement was just because the size of the baby which has already grown which makes inadequate space for his/her movement. The scan showed a healthy heart rate and the measurements was promising as well and we need not to worry. Alhamdulillah... Her gynist also remind us that up till Friday if she still doesn't feel any contraction, she will have to be referred to the hospital for further examination.

And up till now, the anticipation continues...

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 1:54 PM

Minggu depan 6 Sept - 8 Sept, updates for my blog will temporarily be slow. Aku ada exhibition dekat Grand Seasons, KL. I'll catch with you guys when I get back ya? Anyway, kalau Honey dah masuk hospital or anything while I'm there, I'll let you guys know. Kalau aku tak sempat update thru my blog entries, then I'll ask my fellow bloggers to update you on the good news thru my tagboard. Geez, suspense eh as I wait in anticipation...? I'm gonna be a dad in no time. To dato, abghero, yanz, mod, ayzan & slyn, pray me ya? To the rest of my friends, pray for me oso! My Allah be with me, Honey and my kid. Amin...

Ok, catch with you later people.
Enjoy your weekend.

Wassalam,
Fahimi

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 4:08 PM

Malaysian former Deputy Prime Minister Anwar Ibrahim has been set free from jail after the country's highest court overturned his sodomy conviction.

The decision came six years to the day after his dramatic sacking by Malaysia's then Prime Minister, Dr Mahathir Mohammed.

OK you won't find this stuff in your news bulletins, but this is a blog! So it's free-for-all. Seems like as the sms-es go around, rumours abound. People in the city are wondering if Anwar is really free? The word is that he went out in a Black Maria. So that led some people to think it's all a sham. Can't confirm, but, by all accounts, Anwar Ibrahim is a free man!

TheSun's NewsNow confirms that the Federal Court today set aside the High Court's conviction against Anwar Ibrahim for sodomy in a 2-1 majority decision.

Anwar's brother Idrus Ibrahim came out of the court to address the press that Anwar was too sick to address the crowd and confirmed that Anwar would now go overseas for treatment. "Hopefully he can fly to Germany."

Keadilan politician Ezam Mohd Noor said that Anwar might be sent to Munich early tomorrow night in a special air craft provided by the Saudi government.

Anwar's wife Wan Azizah was interviewed in a lift and she said: "This is a brave decision. This is the beginning of the healing for my family and the nation." She also said Anwar is in critical condition, they will want to bring Anwar to Munich as soon as possible. She also denied that this decision was part of a political deal.

Thanks Danny for the live updates from Putrajaya! Great work man... and to my friend Lyana, my warmest regards to your uncle. Hope he'll get well soon.

p/s : One more rumour I got from an sms last night was that our own datoseri dah selamat bertunang! It was later on confirmed in his blog today. Congrats bro, moga semuanya selamat, Insya Allah. I can smell the sirap bekwoh from here! Haha... best, best!

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 2:43 PM

Last night during Merdeka Eve, aku ngan Honey pack barang2 kat umah dan bawak ke umah mak mertua aku kat Pandan Indah. Kitorang dah bincang ngan mak & ayah Honey dan dah buat keputusan nak stay kat Pandan Indah starting September ni untuk standby menyambut kelahiran baby kitorg. Ikutkan due date 11 September, tapi just for extra precaution it would be better if Honey stays at her mom's. Lagipon tak best gak kalau Honey dok Damansara sorang2 sementara aku kat opis. Kot2 la apa2 jadik masa aku takde. Pergerakan baby skarang dah makin aktif. Kadang2 Honey rasa perut dia senak and kekadang she even suffered small gastrics. Doktor cakap gastric tu jadi sebab kedudukan baby skang dah dalam kedudukan yg sebaik2nya untuk kelahiran - kaki kat atas dan kepala kat bawah. So, bila baby yang dah besar tu stretch, kaki dia tu menekan perut Honey ke atas. Tu yg sebabkan rasa loya dan gastric. Alhamdulillah, Honey is coping excellently well so far. Cuma di sebelah malam masa kitorg tidur, ada masa2nye pergerakan baby tu tetiba jadik aktif. Jadi terpaksa la bangun jap bersengkang mata. Esok kena bawak Honey pi check lagi skali. Mungkin kali ni yang last sebelum delivery. Harap2nya camtu la, Insya Allah... though you bet, I AM a bit nervous!

We FINALLY came to conclusion on what our baby's name is gonna be. But no offense people, coz up to date, it's still strictly P&C! Thanx to each and eveyone of you for those ideas. Just in case, we preppared some baby girls' names as well. You'll never know rite? Dua2 kali scan, doktor cakap baby boy. Tapi tak kesah la, as long as both Honey and our baby are fine and healthy. That would be heaven enough for me. I pray hard for that each and every single day.

A tip from Old Wives Tales. Your friends and relatives may be telling you what they think your baby is. Some of these theories can be really fun. For example, if Dad is more nervous, a daughter is on the way. (Nervous? Damn yeah! You WILL be nervous about picking up a human being that is slightly larger than a football knowing that it is YOUR child!) If he's more relaxed, it's a boy. If Dad is getting lots of household projects done, a boy is coming. If Dad isn't doing more projects, it's a girl. If Dad gains weight with Mom, it's a boy. If he stays the same weight-wise, it's a girl. So Dad? What's it gonna be? Melihat keadaan perut aku yang boroi skarang, aku rasa,... betul kot boy. Hehe...

Pray for us my fellow friends!

p/s : Thought of the day, "The people who make a difference are not the ones with the credentials, but the ones with the concern".

Posted by Wan Mohd Fahimi @ 10:49 AM